the hardest battle ever.

even tho i said that i have let it go,

the pain is still there.

it's excruciating.

and i just have to let it go.

oh Allah.

it's not only that i have to let it go,

i WANT to let it go.

but, to bear this painful feelings, is really hard.

it's not painful like we're having a cut on our skin.

it's beyond that.

it can't be seen.

it can't be felt by ur sensory organs.

yet u know it's bleeding like flowing rivers.

it's hurt that i just cry deeply inside.